Saturday, June 13, 2015

70 YEARS AND COUNTING



Their images 
etched in shadow light

forever
remind of us 
of their plight.

Cries of agony
and pain

frozen
in a flash --

as flesh sloughed
and fell
from mortal frame.

A war was ended
So they claim
the casualties,
a necessity.

Life ended
in Hiroshima 
it seems, 
as
Freedom rang
for you and me.

*August 2015 marks 70 years
since the dropping of the atom
bomb on Hiroshima 




Wednesday, April 8, 2015

THE JURY'S IN

I am sickened.

The taste of blood
is heavy on this jury's
tongues.

No blood
smeared on the lintel 
will spare this man/boy's
life.

His fate 
is sealed,

I fear

No balm exists
for Boston
save this brother's
blood.


Sunday, March 29, 2015

MARGARET'S SONG: ELEGIA FOR A SISTER


I watched you grow,
become a woman
of incredible strengths.

Your laughter
lit my world,
And washed my heart
clear of sorrows.

Where will I find
another you?

Someone who can
transform my days
and sooth life's wounds?

You were my sister.
You are my sister.

This shadow world
of memories
Will form in bright
reverie
on my heart

And thoughts 
of you

Will be with me
throughout 
my days.


Monday, November 10, 2014

THERE SHOULD BE COBWEBS



There are memories
that bring a smile,
a warm remembrance
of childhood’s joy.

Bacon,
sizzling in a pan,

the aroma filling the room,
mouths watering 
in anticipation.

Your mother in an apron,
fork in hand
moving each strip with care


As you cut a peach,
ripe and succulent,

its slices falling
on steaming oatmeal.

But these are memories
never spoke of now.

A jar of
peanut butter,

bargain shelf special --

A loaf of wheat bread,

Freihoffer’s,
Buy one,
get two free

are all the pantry
offers now.

Eight months 
without a job --

No peaches in
her child’s hands.

Only anguish,
where once
there were dreams.







Thursday, November 6, 2014

HANDSOME



I look at his beard.

It is turning white,
making him look
more handsome
and dignified.

I can barely remember
him as a boy --
soft, gentle eyes,
trusting and full of warmth.

Today,
a man near 60,
he has dignity
and stature.

How I love him.
He is my brother.

And I,
a sister,
a bit in awe.







Wednesday, October 29, 2014

THE INHERITANCE



With it came dreams,
dreams of death
with nondescript images
swirled in sensations
of loss and privation.

It had seem a god send
before its arrival --
Her final act of love
for those she held dear.

But with its presence,
loss surfaced
from depths unrealized
in day’s bright light.

I love you, Anna
More than words can say.

I never realized
how dear we were
to you,

Never held you close --

My loss.





Saturday, October 18, 2014

MOTHERHOOD UNDONE


She had played the victim
for so long
It was difficult to drop
the role.

Reaching out, 
making needs known,
came only in tears
of recrimination.

How, how can she
be reached?
How made to see
no blame is needed,

just the words
I need you.






Sunday, August 31, 2014

COUNTING CHICKS


I count them as I
sense the day
ahead resound as waves
slap on the shore of dreams.

This will be done,
Then that.

Things put in order
no less sure than
Homer's recitation
of the ships
of Agammemnon
Or the fleet of Odyesseus.

This will be done
and taken care of

Sure as the ripple
of an ocean breeze
brings waves on the sea,

These chicks,
they peck their beaks
through the opaque 
filaments of life

Ready to break open
a world of possibility
with rewards.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

ELEGY FOR A BOY LOST


When she looked in his eyes,
she could see her soul.

The world around her
disappeared
and love and caring
filled the void 
between their existence

And the moment
he was lost.

She remembered
blue eyes,
so sparkling
and bright

They seemed to hold
her very essence
entwined
with his.

How does a mother
mourn
the loss of one
so young,
so tender?

When does the healing
start,
the heartache end?

In July 2014 a 15-month=old
boy died in his parents’ car,
forgotten by his father on a
90 degree day in Ridgefield. His
mother shared her grief with
our paper.

Sunday, July 27, 2014

RENDEZVOUS WITH CLARITY



The mind is frail,
a leaf
blown dry 
by age’s progress.

Frustration comes
with passing days
of confusion 
and befuddlement.

You once were sharp
as field grass
blown between the fingers
of a mountain lass,
a note carried on the wind.

I remember turning
to you
for answers --

I will be with you,
by your side
through this old age.

To bring a smile,
a moments happiness
to that dear face

And brush away
the shadows of confusion
that cloud your mind.


Sunday, May 25, 2014

DIFFICULT KNOWLEDGE



Its in my mind,

sizzles in my brain.

I must set it free,

set  it on the page
where others can see

I know many will shun it,
turn away with a sigh

“Ah, she has issues”

But it lingers,
inside

Then
Escapes. 



Sunday, April 20, 2014

A SHERPA WIFE


She was Khadeu,
had married down to be with him.
But as a Sherpa guide,
he had brought wealth to their home
and their clan.

Rugs of splendid colors
adorned their sleeping plank and floor.
Butter, milk and curd cheese
graced their table.

She was proud to bear his son,
a boy of squat stature and dark eyes,
like his father,
who would surely bring a Khadeu girl with child
into their home as bride.

Yet when he made the trek 
to The Mother of The Wold,
called Everest by the foreigners
who lined his palm with many coins

she visited the Shaman,
asking her to speak the words of
The Mother
to share the mountain's deepest thoughts

on how she would deal with her children
as they ascended her crags and rises,
moving toward her peak

fixing ropes and setting camps
for the pseudo-Hillarys,
who though 4,000 had gone before them
longed to add their names to those who
had conquered The Mother.

At the festival of Dumje,
had she not danced and sung
The Mother's virtures?

Had she not drank the strong liquor
celebrating for prosperity, good health
and general welfare of her community?

Yet here she was,
boy-child by her side,
waiting for the 49th day when her husband's
soul could depart their home.

The Lama had cut a lock of her
husband's hair
so the breath of life might leave his body,

But his soul could not depart
until the 49th day after his death.

"Mother of The World,"
Why did you bury him
and the 12 others in that 
glacial grave?

Did I not do all a righteous
Sherpa wife should?
Did I not sing in Sherpali,
praising your ways?

Was that not enough?

Saturday, April 12, 2014

THAT OLD TWO STEP



By the third one
She was numb.

Too many tangled,
“no, I don’t really love you’s”
caught up in her dreams.

Erotic arousal brings
visions of 
dismemberment

little feet and hands
that would never hold
a mother’s heart.

Heart? 
What is heart?
Eggs sizzle
in the pan

where once a soft,
moist kiss
bespoke of moments
lost.

“No, I did not love him.”
Safer not to love
‘till dismembered babies
enter the picture.

A saxophone somewhere
far off plays...
Baby, take my heart.
Baby, take my hand.
take me to the arcade

Baby make them eggs stop
sizzlin’ --
Make that pinball whirl end,
the arcade lights go dim,

Make this menstral trail
fill once again with life,
set aside the ache of life spent,
life lost,

Life -- that egg that sizzles,
never hatched.


Saturday, March 22, 2014

SAHARA SUNRISE




This sand, 
it sears the flesh.
Abrasions form 
where once unblemished
cheeks shone bright
with hope.

This train, 
it moves so slow,
so achingly slow,
There seems no end
to this long ride.

Eyes grow opaque,
no images,
just searing wind
blowing glass-edged
grains that sear away
protective layers.

They seem endless,
these days of travel
to the mines.

They seem hollow,
vacant as the echos
of dreams once dreamt.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

LIKE LOVE, LIKE ROBERT HASS


I am in love
with Robert Hass,

Fucking his woman 
in the ass,

sick of birth.

find anger there
that brings me peace,

like the succulent juices
of an o're ripe peach.






THE PROBLEM WITH WOMEN


Drink from this vessel
all ye who thirst,
For sustenance flows here.

Quench that thirst
that parches the soul.

Abandon reciprocating
with empty promises.

Fill this vessel to the brim
lest it wither 
like a haggard womb.

ON COMING HOME


 An exorcism has taken
  Place.

  This house no longer holds
  childhood’s fears.

  Gone is the wrestling
  of angst and anxiety
  Once borne in this child’s breast.

  She feels at peace, at rest,
  No need to flee,
  no restless urge to leave:
  
  Home at last.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

ROTHKO'S EYES


I cannot entertain this truth
as being someone else’s.

I envision Cassandra
reaching out in her last moment,
retching 
from the stench of truth

And it is me.

I think of Iphigenia 
on that alter stone,
eyes gazing up at father’s

And it is me.

I watch with inward eye
as Clytemnestra plots Agamemnon’s death:
bath drawn,
knife stealthily concealed

And it is me.

“ROTHKO!” 
I shout, gazing on the Eagle.

And agonize,
conceiving corpses
cold before my coil was formed,

And It Is ME.

*The artist Mark Rothko’s
“Omen of The Eagle” was his response
to “The Orestia.” I offer this feminist
response to both works.

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

ANNA'S LAST WALTZ


She danced in the air,
a mote in the gaslight
soft 
     and fragile,
her moment over 
too soon.

When she thought
of him
It was with a longing
for moments lost,

For a dance never
fully engaged in.

Raw silk
chafed at her neck,
this would be her last waltz.

One danced alone.

Her feet 
never touching the
cold, grey
cement  floor

Once the chair
was kicked aside
And all of her sadness
evaporated,
A mote in the gaslight.





Sunday, July 21, 2013

PORTLAND VIGNETTE


That night she watched as snow fell against the branches of the evergreen -- large, silent drops, cool and white drifting at its base. And the bamboo, soft and gentle dancing in the wind.
It was so beautiful, the way its shadows lay against the snow.
Sighing, she let the curtain drop as she drew her comforter from the chair.
Come July, she thought, the sun will warm me by the water and perhaps someone with a dog will be by my side to laugh and rest and dream with me.

Pushing the cap back from his face, he leaned forward and stoked the fire. 
For an instant he thought he caught the image of a woman flickering like sunlight on a mountain stream.
Come July, he thought, I’ll laugh with that woman by my side.

When they met each other at the new restaurant on The Willamette that Friday afternoon, they smiled and wondered if this could be the July they’d dreamt about that winter.